A greater purpose

I know it has been a while but I have been overwhelmed of late. can anyone else relate to this?

After four years of military service I am still itching to be apart of the "greater good". Anyone who is male and maybe a female or two (I am not sure though, that gender seems confused) will agree that you just get sick of the day to day fight to stay afloat. It sucks and I dream of more. I believe I was intended for something much bigger then myself. being a Hero and working towards something greater dieing for something bigger. I may not be the smartest or fastest but if you give me a purpose or objective worthy of my time no one will do it better or more effectively as I will. can anyone else relate? Hasent anyone else wondered about pushing through the garbage and fighting an enemy that must be defeated? Can anyone else relate to wanting the tast of battle for the first time or again? Can anyone else see my heart and my hunger? Was anyone elses life like a giant bootcamp molding them into a war machine? Does anyone else feel like the perfect soldier left on the shelf or dropped in the snow? Does anyone else think they are a genius but have not had their chance to shine? does anyone else even know what i am talking about? frustration.