Dear consumer...

In a response to something I posted on July 12 which evolved in to a conversation in one fashion or another. It can be found in the comments section of that post.
I am not sure if it was to elicit a reaction out of me or something else all together. I guess you could say that me posting about it is a reaction but it was a good statement so I must. I just write what ever I want to and I do contradict my self at times but we all contradict ourselves at one point or another in our own minds. The flaws in what I have to say are not important so try to focus through my own clouded mind for a moment because that's what you get when you read my blog. You get my mind raw, flawed and real.
I know me and being who I am is all that I have ever been really good at. I don't express my good side to anyone because being good makes you a target.
I am a good person to a degree that most others on this planet cannot comprehend and if they can they will not believe it. That's how good I am. I am naturally a person who cannot stand to see injustice and cannot see the good in harming another. I know what unconditional love is and I have always given it. I know what its like to starve and I have looked into the eyes of a dying man and said my goodbye to the music of his last breath. I know the wisdom of age and the exuberance of youth. I hate to lie but I know that there are times where it can be justified, not right only justified. I am true to me and what I believe and I am loyal to those I love. I am not blinded by the farce of feelings but I am not ignorant to the thing that makes me human. I speak of my darker side because that's what most people want to read about. I hope that the more that read this site the more they will try to learn from me. No I don't want to lead I want to set a failed example of the perfect template so that others can try also. I am such a good person that writing this reminds me of how much I hurt inside for others. I am such a bad person that the only thing I can think of some days is that I will pay for what I have done. I am such a bad person that when the paradime shifts and swings the other way I pray that my good will have outweighed my bad. I am such a bad person that I doubt that I could correct the things I have set wrong if I was given another life. I am such a contradiction wrapped in this flesh that I beg for a forgiveness that I know I don't deserve. I had a point I wanted to make but I forgot it already so I am going to end here.

The pig and the truffle...

If no one knew I am going to explain what a truffle is. A truffle is a root that is very soft and has a very unique taste. Truffles are very difficult to find without a very very sharp nose. In the middle ages rather then train a Dog for years to find them small pigs were used because without training a pig could find a truffle quickly. Truffles were hard to eat raw so they were diced and covered in chocolate and served as a desert. I feel like the pig. You see I am more of a source finder for my brother who is more the culinary expert. I give him information that to me is difficult to swallow and he refines it and dices it up into small pieces for me to eat. He is very good at refining the truth and I am very good at finding truth. I love him for this cause I hate to have to sift through the truth for hours just to make head or tails of something that I am pretty sure will add up to no more then a small tidbit of fun. Him on the other hand, he must know what is true and what is not and he will search an entire pathetic site to ensure he has not missed a single fact.