How long would you wait for help?

Maybe I am a little bit different then most but Why after a natural disaster would you wait for someone to rescue you rather then rescue your self?
I know that we have had it drilled into our heads that when your lost you need to stay put and wait for someone to find you. But you can only live for three days without water and you can fight off the fatigue of not eating for about 14 days if your not to lean and have plenty of clean water. If you don't have either food or water and you have children with you why would you wait for anyone to come and get you? Are you so dependent on the government teat that you cannot support your pathetic meat sack or those who depend on you for basic life support? I find that sad and depressing because if the current scientific community is correct we may be heading for a short (and by short I mean that in scientific terms) warm up that will change the global weather patterns beyond dramatically and impact our lives greatly. Not to mention all the other disasters that are looming over our society at this present moment. Why not learn to survive? I think that its more then a right, its a responsibility. I think that in the words of Maynard from tool "Learn to swim". Most of you're going to need it. Here is a link to help: IPN

Stop looking for an alternative...

When I see a CGI elephant dancing in the rain I thought "that's an odd marketing approach...". When I realized it was the Gas & Oil conglomeration BP stopped thinking it was odd and started thinking it was funny. You see everyone knows that Global Warming is a hot button issue today and while there is only mountains of data to support the theory there is no Fact to prove it conclusively. I am sorry a computer model does not count as proof. If you worked with computers you would know that they are only as flawless as the people operating them. What is so funny is the subtlety of the word alternative. An alternative is an option and while I do not necessarily subscribe to global warming I do that to believe we will have petrol forever is ignorant. While I again don't want you to mistake my point for some sort of even more tenuous theory subscription to "Peak Oil". I don't subscribe to any theory exclusively. I am just saying to offer an alternative is to give a choice where people are not only highly unlikely to not choose but then those who do are going choose the alternative must bear the weight and responsibility of those who do not want to make the change. I propose that we no longer offer or even search for alternatives. I think we should be looking for replacements for global energy. We should be dumping copious amounts of money into things like nano-carbon filaments for power transmission across a global energy network.

While we live... Let us live!

What did I want?
I wanted the hurtling moons of Barsoom. I wanted Storisende and Poictesme, and Holmes shaking me awake to tell me, "The games' afoot!" I wanted to float down the Mississippi on a raft and elude a mob in company with the Duke of Bilgewater and the Lost Dauphin. I wanted Prester John and Excalibur held by a moon-white arm out of a silent lake. I wanted to sail with Ulysses and with Tros of Samothrace and eat the lotus in a land that seemed always afternoon. I wanted the feeling of romance and the sense of wonder I had known as a kid. I wanted the world to be what they had promised me it was going to be -- instead of the tawdry, lousy, fouled-up mess it is."

-- Glory Road, Robert Heinlein

Let men be men and allow them to teach their sons; any boy who wants to listen and learn how to be a man let him go and find a teacher who can teach and show him the path to truly being masculine.
Let boys makes mistakes and show them how to take responsibility for it.
Let men make decisions and when they are Wong don't tear them down for having a flaw or being human.
We are all imperfect and we must accept that.
The truth is in the actions of good men and women not in the words.
Those who teach and violate the sacred bond between teacher and student let them be flogged publicly so that they may endure the shame of their transgression.
Find the balance between being the leader and dictator.
Seek the role "Head of the house" and rather then spineless husband or tyrannical abuser.
Accept your limitations or overcome them but don't lament them and ask for alms.
Understand that the majority rules not the minority that cries the loudest.


I don't know why I wrote that but I guess that men today kind of make me sick and women annoy me much more then they amuse me. I wish I was a perfect as I want everyone to strive to be so that I could say "look at me I am the model please follow my example" but I'm not. That is kind of me looking to be a messiah figure and I am not it. Then I look at the true example and I can see why he said that it was lucky for those who did see him cause it going to be much harder on those who did not. How many millennia have we had to take the truth and follow it and yet we seem destined to fail. I love my wife she is the saint that keeps me striving to be a better person.

Do you have eyes to see what I can see

does any of this seem to ring a bell for anyone else? Am I the only person who feels like they are being filled with knowledge from somewhere else? Whose else has memories that were never theirs? Fuck me read this and please post and tell me what those forrests look like and what that tree smelled like. I think I am so fucking nuts that I should be locked up.



" The axis of the world was Yggdrasill. That ash soared and its branches fanned over gods and men and giants and dwarfs. It sheltered all creation. One root dug deep into Niflheim and under that root the spring Hvergelmir seethed and growled like water in a cauldron. Down there the dragon Nidhogg ripped apart corpses. Between mouthfuls, he sent the squirrel Ratatosk whisking up the trunk from deepest earth to heaven; it carried insults to the eagle who sat on the topmost bough, with a hawk perched on its brow. And Nidhogg was not content with corpses; he and his vile accomplices gnawed at the root of Yggdrasill itself, trying to loosen what was firm and put an end to the eternal. Other creatures, too, attacked and preyed off the living tree - four stags nibbled at the new leaves, and goats tugged and tore off the tender shoots. Parts of the huge trunk were peeling, parts were rotten. Yggdrasill whispered and Yggdrasill groaned.A second root curled into Asgard. Under that root flowed the well of Urd, the spring of destiny, where the gods gathered each day and held a court of justice. The three Norns lived near by, Fate and Being and Necessity. They shaped the life of each man from his first day to his last. And every day they sprinkled water on the branches of Yggdrasill and nourished the suffering tree.The third root burrowed into that part of Jotunheim held by the frost giants. Under that root bubbled the spring guarded by wise Mimir, and the water in that well gave insight to those who tasted it. The god Heimdall left his shrieking horn there until the day when he would need it to summon every living creature to Ragnarok. And Odin had given one eye for a single draught from it. He won immense knowledge there and with it the thirst for yet greater wisdom. So the Terrible One approached Yggdrasill alone.

Odin said:
'I hung from that windswept tree, hung there for nine long nights; I was pierced with a spear; I was an offering to Odin, myself to myself.

‘No one has ever known or will ever know the roots of that ancient tree.

‘No one came to comfort me with bread, no one revived me with a drink from a horn. I peered at the worlds below; I seized the runes, shrieking I seized them; then I fell back.

‘From Bolthor's famous son, Besla's father, I learned nine powerful songs. I was able to drain the precious mead from the cauldron of Odrorir.

‘Then I began to thrive, my wisdom grew; I prospered and was fruitful. One word gained me many words; one deed gained me many deeds.

‘The charms I know are not known by the wives of kings or by any man. The first is called Help because it can comfort grief and lessen pain and cure sickness.

‘I know a second: any man who hopes to become a healer needs to know it.

‘I know a third: if I should sorely need help to hold back my enemy, I can blunt my opponent's blade and soften his staff so he cannot wound me.

‘I know a fourth: if anyone should bind me hand and foot, this charm is so great that the locks spring apart, releasing my limbs; I can walk free.

‘I know a fifth: if I should see a well aimed arrow speeding to its mark, I can catch it however fast it flies; I have only to fix it with my eye.

‘I know a sixth: if anyone thinks to finish me by sending a sapling's roots engraved with runes, that hero - full of spleen - will only destroy himself.

‘I know a seventh: if I should see the hall roof burst into flames over the heads of my chosen comrades, I can quench the blaze however fierce it may be; I know the charm.

‘I know an eighth; all men would be well advised to learn it: if hatred takes root in men's minds, I can uproot it.

‘I know an ninth: if I should need to save my ship in a storm, I can calm the wind that whips off wavecrests and put the sea to sleep.

‘I know a tenth; if ever I see witches flying on rafters, I can sing so that they go into a whirl and cannot change back into their day shapes or find their way to their own front doors.

‘I know an eleventh: if I have to lead loyal, long-loved friends into a fight, I can sing behind my shield and they will go from strength to strength;
-unscathed to the battle,
-unscathed after the battle;
-unscathed they return home.

‘I know a twelfth: if I see a hanged man swinging from a tree, with his heels above my head, I can cut and colour the runes so that he will come down and talk to me.

‘I know a thirteenth: if I sprinkle water over a child, he will never fall in a thick of battle, nor falter and sink in the sword-play.

‘I know a fourteenth: if I so desire, I can tell men the names of the gods and elves one by one - few fools can do that!

‘I know a fifteenth: the dwarf Thjodrorir sang it in front of Delling's doors, a charm of power for the gods, glory for the elves, wisdom for Odin.

‘I know a sixteenth: if I long for love-play, I can turn the mind and win the heart of a white-armed woman.

‘I know a seventeenth: such a charm that a young girl will be loath to forsake me.

‘I know an eighteenth: I will never tell it to a girl or married woman unless I am lying in her arms or she is my own sister! What you and you alone know is always the most potent. And that is the last of the charms.
'These were the words of Odin before there were men. These were his words, after his death, when he rose again."

- The Norse Myths, Introduced and retold by Kevin Crossley-Hollandthe Pantheon Fairy Tale and Folklore Library

Hear No Evil, See No Evil, Speak No Evil

I have been wanting to write this for some time but I just never got around to it. I guess this is the best time to write it cause I am at work and I am getting grossly over paid to do this. I read somewhere:
"Hear no evil, see no evil, Then you have no reason to suspect any."
And that almost made me choke on the truth of the statement. If you have never seen it done or done it yourself, you will not know, nor will you recognize the circumstances in which that particular thing would be done or even considered. If you have never sat in a room with a bunch of generals and listened to their conversation about sending a team of 8 men to their (what seemed at the time) deaths. Mind you its no ordinary team, it was a team of US Navy SeALs. Remember it cost in excess of one million dollars to train one navy seal to full operator status and they send 8 of them to die to accomplish an objective. Before that day I could conceive of the idea but I never actually heard it rationalized. After that day I never looked at another officer the same way again. Those SeALs did what they had to do and to everyone's surprise they all lived and were very annoyed at the lack usable intel they were given. If you have never beaten someone into hospitalizing you would never know that one person could "loose it" like that and not care. If you have never had your heart broken you just don't know what it feels like until you do and you cannot counsel someone who has until you have been in that situation.

The reason I write this is because I always talk to my wife about certain things that she just mostly finds unthinkable or totally "crazy, how? Or why would someone do that?" and I just thought that everyone was like me. That is to say a former evil terrible manipulating puppy killing candy from a baby maiden stealer thirty pieces of silver kind of guy like me. I guess not, then again I also guess that's why I am so fucking paranoid about people. The sad thing about those days of my life is that I learned so much and was my own worst enemy. I would fear karma if I did not think that Karma sat on my shoulder and stabbed me in the heart and the back ten times worse then I did to others. I still wonder How I survived my self. You may not know that someone would do it but trust me if it can be done there is someone out there that is planning on doing it. I may not know everything that can be done but I sure as hell know that there is no limit to the depths that people will sink to accomplish their pointless goals.

I think what I am trying to say is this. Just because you could not commit the crime or hurt the completely innocent does not mean that I (or someone else of like demenor, nature) havent, couldent, or wouldent for no reason other then the idea crossed my (our) decayed mind.