Just an FYI...
don't say what you do not mean.
don't make a threat unless you can make it a reality.
don't don't complain unless you have a solution.
don't talk unless you ask your self this question: If this was being said to me would I listen?
Friday, July 23, 2004
No rest for the wicked....
I am sorry for not posting in a few days. I have to be motivated to post and seeing as how I am at work again I think I will post.
there is no rest for the wicked...There is no rest...For the wicked...No rest...
The woods are lovely, dark and deep.
I have promises to keep
my legs are tired I feel so weak
Miles to go before I sleep
For a long time while I was away I heard this repeated over and over in my mind. Maybe it was my subconscious or maybe something else whispering in my ear for five years without cease. Does anyone know how maddening that is? At that time in my life was was a despicable human being. Abusing my self and others around me as a penance for my transgressions was not enough. At night when I was ready to fall asleep all the acts of the previous days came rushing back to me and I could not sleep. Always the demon of my other side would mock me until after weeks of not sleeping I would get medication and vodka and that would do the trick.
I have a new broken record that keeps playing in my mind as of late and its almost as maddening.
Are you ready? Are you prepared?
Are you happy? Be scared.
It wont take long. It wont be long.
It will be fast. It will last.
You will be there until the future becomes the past.
Do you know that I find that slightly comforting? No I don't like thinking into that too far I just like to be comfortable and that's all. You could cut all the skin from my body as long as you don't make me uncomfortable. Ever had to bury someone with your own hands? I haven't either but I think one day I may have to learn. I don't know what will do it but I know that one day I will cry so hard I will break for the last time. I know I will be pushed to my limits in such a way that I will not recover I will just keep moving forward a broken man. I don't know what will separate her and I but I feel that the minute she is out of my "Protection" it will happen and I will not be able to save her. I can hear the screams of the future sometimes if I listen for them. Ever thought that the weeping of the past if, done hard enough, can ring forward to the future. Ever thought that the future is already written and sometimes what people think are ghost of the past may be warnings from the future? I know cause I can taste my own blood when I have not been cut and I can hear the cries of my brothers all around me. When men weep for their wives and lament the days they were born. When they cry to a God they don't know and have never spoken to before for vengeance. When they have lost everything but the need to believe in something they will cry out for him and he will be there. We will all learn what its like to mourn the dead and how to dread the future.
Are you ready? Are you prepared?
Are you happy? Be scared.
It wont take long. It wont be long.
It will be fast. It will last.
You will be there until the future becomes the past.
there is no rest for the wicked...There is no rest...For the wicked...No rest...
The woods are lovely, dark and deep.
I have promises to keep
my legs are tired I feel so weak
Miles to go before I sleep
For a long time while I was away I heard this repeated over and over in my mind. Maybe it was my subconscious or maybe something else whispering in my ear for five years without cease. Does anyone know how maddening that is? At that time in my life was was a despicable human being. Abusing my self and others around me as a penance for my transgressions was not enough. At night when I was ready to fall asleep all the acts of the previous days came rushing back to me and I could not sleep. Always the demon of my other side would mock me until after weeks of not sleeping I would get medication and vodka and that would do the trick.
I have a new broken record that keeps playing in my mind as of late and its almost as maddening.
Are you ready? Are you prepared?
Are you happy? Be scared.
It wont take long. It wont be long.
It will be fast. It will last.
You will be there until the future becomes the past.
Do you know that I find that slightly comforting? No I don't like thinking into that too far I just like to be comfortable and that's all. You could cut all the skin from my body as long as you don't make me uncomfortable. Ever had to bury someone with your own hands? I haven't either but I think one day I may have to learn. I don't know what will do it but I know that one day I will cry so hard I will break for the last time. I know I will be pushed to my limits in such a way that I will not recover I will just keep moving forward a broken man. I don't know what will separate her and I but I feel that the minute she is out of my "Protection" it will happen and I will not be able to save her. I can hear the screams of the future sometimes if I listen for them. Ever thought that the weeping of the past if, done hard enough, can ring forward to the future. Ever thought that the future is already written and sometimes what people think are ghost of the past may be warnings from the future? I know cause I can taste my own blood when I have not been cut and I can hear the cries of my brothers all around me. When men weep for their wives and lament the days they were born. When they cry to a God they don't know and have never spoken to before for vengeance. When they have lost everything but the need to believe in something they will cry out for him and he will be there. We will all learn what its like to mourn the dead and how to dread the future.
Are you ready? Are you prepared?
Are you happy? Be scared.
It wont take long. It wont be long.
It will be fast. It will last.
You will be there until the future becomes the past.
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- Hardwaremonkey
- I am seeking truth and understanding. I am trying to find the thread that connects all things.