The chemicals between us...

You are young and you are trapped in your own misery. You are the kind of person who still thinks the world can be saved. You cant admit that to me because you, like me, know that its a wasted thing to believe in but you, unlike me, have yet to accept it. You know that people suck and despite your attempts to shake them awake they don't seem to come out of their coma. You want things to get better and right now at this point in your life your not ready to hit the bottom. You will keep going until you finally get so exhausted from your lone savior like battle you give up.
You stop caring about anything and everything and just move through your days a zombie. No not a ghoul like all the rest, you are damned to a much worse fate then the masses. Your undead by your own choosing and your awake to suffer through each grueling moment. You don't have your ignorance shield and thick armor of perpetuated lies to protect you any more.
 You don't want to be this bitter but your a holder of the truth and the price of knowledge is eternal unrest in your questionless existence. Sure have some questions but those are the ones that don't need to be answered to see the whole picture. You have enough of the tapestry to make you sick with fear and loathing at your own foolishness. How dare you keep looking for the truth to your existence! Your are destined to toil your life away in social monotonany until you die. Why was that not good enough? Why did you have to keep searching for the Holy Grail, Atlantis, The land of Mu, El Dorado, Aliens, The body of Jesus, the end of Pi? No you just kept going until you came to this point right now. The point that your eyes are truly opened and you see your not alone.  There are only a handful of others who see things like you do but you not alone. They all say the same thing, don't rock the boat all it does is throws others over who cant swim. The end is near, we will all get to sleep that truly rests the body and frees the soul.