A little annoying...

I know that the only thing I will ever be known for is my death. I know that the works in my life while not important to everyone will mean everything to some. I never want to be special but I cannot shake the comments of others out of my head. How many times do you hear that your a very special person? How many times has someone ever told you that you changed their life? For the better or worse? How often do space out and dream about more and so much less all at the same time? I am lost in my own life and I feel like I am wasting away on the inside a little bit every day. Why do I scare some to death and others have and will never feel safer then they do when they are around me? I really should be medicated. Where are you? Your not alone just speak up. At least I am trying. What are you doing?