For all the Male readers...

Ever feel like something is missing in your life? like you were supposed to be some kind of hero and your not? Like your purpose was greater then pumping gas or being manager at a local retailer store?
For a long time I searched this whole globe looking for the thing that would make me feel worth while. I looked for my purpose in this swirling mass of people and I did not find it. I found God, I found Love, I found Sex, drugs, material things but most of all I found nothing. When I came home after being away from a family I had never left I had aquired almost nothing. It was frequent for me to visit without anything but the clothes on my back. After four years I fit everything I owned in two suitcases.
I was not satisfied or happy with me, all I found was emptiness and I had better defiend that gap in my soul. Can it be filled? Is there a man out there that can securly tell me he is not only happy but fulfilled also?

More fun...

So i have sat in this seat almost non-stop for seven hours. I dont think anyone knows how unbearable it is to do a job that requires you to sit still when you havent been on ritilin for seven months cuase you can afford it. I am beside my self with anxity to move but I am afraid that if i get up I am going to run out of this building screaming.
Can anyone else relate to wanting a little bit more excitement in their life? I spent the last four years traveling the world then I come home and I havent even left the state in months. I wanna drown my self in the toilett! ( <---a statement made in frustration, not a genuine cry for help) If anyone else out there reads this I want to know what you wanted to be when you grow up. Did anyone out there ever say they want to grow up and be a wimp or a chump or something along those lines? I ask cause I want to know.

Another day

So I guess today is about the average in my life. I waited till the last second before I got up. If it was not for my girl I would have not gotten up at all. I dont have a problem staying awake I have a problem getting there. I hate waking up for work. This is not new to anyone else out there I am sure. I drove the hour and a half to work and when I got here I sit still. Now for a 23 year old who has been on ritlin since he was diagnosed with adult ADHD this is dificult. I think it was a crap diagnosis but the meds worked great for me. Sitting still I believe is half the reason that I get paid so much money! I have no college and really no formal training. I do however, have a criminal record with computers and that is mostly whats on my resume. Its all about presentation!