Dear consumer...

In a response to something I posted on July 12 which evolved in to a conversation in one fashion or another. It can be found in the comments section of that post.
I am not sure if it was to elicit a reaction out of me or something else all together. I guess you could say that me posting about it is a reaction but it was a good statement so I must. I just write what ever I want to and I do contradict my self at times but we all contradict ourselves at one point or another in our own minds. The flaws in what I have to say are not important so try to focus through my own clouded mind for a moment because that's what you get when you read my blog. You get my mind raw, flawed and real.
I know me and being who I am is all that I have ever been really good at. I don't express my good side to anyone because being good makes you a target.
I am a good person to a degree that most others on this planet cannot comprehend and if they can they will not believe it. That's how good I am. I am naturally a person who cannot stand to see injustice and cannot see the good in harming another. I know what unconditional love is and I have always given it. I know what its like to starve and I have looked into the eyes of a dying man and said my goodbye to the music of his last breath. I know the wisdom of age and the exuberance of youth. I hate to lie but I know that there are times where it can be justified, not right only justified. I am true to me and what I believe and I am loyal to those I love. I am not blinded by the farce of feelings but I am not ignorant to the thing that makes me human. I speak of my darker side because that's what most people want to read about. I hope that the more that read this site the more they will try to learn from me. No I don't want to lead I want to set a failed example of the perfect template so that others can try also. I am such a good person that writing this reminds me of how much I hurt inside for others. I am such a bad person that the only thing I can think of some days is that I will pay for what I have done. I am such a bad person that when the paradime shifts and swings the other way I pray that my good will have outweighed my bad. I am such a bad person that I doubt that I could correct the things I have set wrong if I was given another life. I am such a contradiction wrapped in this flesh that I beg for a forgiveness that I know I don't deserve. I had a point I wanted to make but I forgot it already so I am going to end here.