your word falls on deaf ears

I am in a search for the truth. I have found many things that i think are more then just run of the mill texts and I am still searching for the wisdom. I only wish to know the truth and be set free. Anyway most of what I find is the lies behins everyone elses precieved truths. I am getting sick from it. You know your in a sad state of affairs when you look to a person like Alister Crowley as a kindred spirit. These are crazy times people.