A borrowed but true statement...

As for me I will have a bit of self loathing with a side of internal anguish. As I have said before I was in the military and with that you should assume I have issues. I say this to the common reader as a warning. I am blessed with a crippling self-awareness which alternately permits me flights of cathartic expression, and when directed inward, horrific self-abuse. Most of what I say on this blog is because if I do not direct some of it outward I would kill my self. I am overwhelmed and this blog is less then a journal and more of an emergency outlet valve. I am slowly killing my self by being me and this is what I have to stay alive for now. Its a pathetic outlet as far as outlets go. I am insane. Don't listen to me if it helps you keep the voices quiet. Don't watch me if your worried what I am going to do next. Make sure you keep reading though so you can keep tasting a reality that you will never have. Deny that your as crazy as I am because lying to yourself will make you emotionally numb. In the end you will also go to sleep with or without someone and still feel unfulfilled. You are not saying enough or maybe your saying too much that is not true. Ninety-nine percent of you are still not asking enough questions. If you really learn to hate yourself then your taking one step in the right direction.