I get to be a hero

For the first time in a very long time (maybe ever)I get to feel like I am worth the 19 cents of chemicals it takes to make up my body. My whole life I have been fascinated with my own death. I have felt that my place where ever it was could not be found on this planet or this plane of existence. I grew up thinking this and it shaped me in very strange ways. Couple that underlying thought with an open upbringing to believe in something and Pentecostal churches and it makes for very strange ways indeed. I never cared about anything other then fulfilling my "Purpose" and getting to die and move on. When I became a man I forgot about the "You have a purpose" and just thought you can go on living or you can die. It took a lot of effort on my part to try and die and I was not up to the task. I will not say I did not give it a very good try but it just never happened; I am still alive.

Now I have crossed into another realm of living. I live with a purpose and its so very strange. You see I was recently married and now I also have a son. If I die my wife Carmen will miss me. My new and first son will also be very sad and he even might miss me too. For me to wrap my mind around this little truth has take me weeks and I fear I am only beginning. For so long I was resigned to my own life in a way most people do not get to experience. With this preface I will get to what has been bouncing around in my head.

Your hero is all I ever wanted to be.
That is how you make me fee, like a hero.
When your sad and I can make you smile I feel like a hero.
When I don't want to go to work I remember that you love me and I feel like a hero.
If you were stuck in a tower with a dragon guarding your door I would be the first there to set you free cause all I ever want to be is your hero.
To you it may seem childish for me to be your hero, but I swear its all I ever wanted to be.
You are my queen and the finest damsel I could ever imagine.
If you ever need to be rescued know that I will gladly take on the task.
I want you to share everything I have live happily everafter.
You are all I ever wanted,
everything I never knew needed,
Now I hope you see your hero is all I ever want to be.