Killing me softly...

I have never been someone who is emotional but today is a hard day for me. I know things that the normal and even sometimes the paranormal person do not know and most of the time cannot fathom. I can see the future, my own others and even sometimes the future of animals. When you come to me to tell me you just got engaged I more then likely knew already. If your wife is pregnant? I bet I knew before either of you ever had a clue. Oh you just got a puppy and he is a super smart dog! You don't know that he will save your daughter from drowning in the pool once and then two months later he will bite your wife. Oh your like airplanes and your 22? Well at 33 you will be a pilot and at 47 you will crash your featherlite plane in a field when an unexpected updraft makes you lose control. I know these things cause they are all predetermined in a giant tapestry. I am never wrong and I never say a word to anyone about their future or what I have seen. For all you control freaks who are angry at me for not helping others change their bleak future I have this to say. You are not in control of your life and your freewill is only free to an extent. You cannot change your future and even if you could you would not. The path we all choose was not chosen for us but it is know and its the only way you will take. If I told you that you were going to die in three months of a heart-attack unless you stopped smoking right now for good. You would not stop you would have a drag and that would tip the scale and you would die. As your heart was failing you would realize that you wanted it all to happen exactly this way and no other way. That is why you would fail even though you knew the outcome you would still fail. People are flawed and I see the flaws and I know the actions that accompany them. I have seen so many lives end right in front of me and those who are dying don't even know it. This all started for me at around the age of 13 and the more I paid attention to this unfortunate gift the more I knew about others. So many other things have sprung from this little insight it would take me all day to explain it to anyone. I am writing all of this to say to all those who I knew and did not tell, to all those who I know and I will not tell. I am so sorry, so so very very sorry. Believe me or not, I knew and know that you did not and do not want to know the truth. Ignorance is truly bliss. God I want to die, and I still have 22 years left.